The Pros and Cons of Weight Loss

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pros and cons

It’s Hump Day, on the second week of Weight Watchers. I’m so hungry. Counting points is so different from counting calories. I know I’m not starving myself, I just feel like I’m eating so little. Honestly, if I ate a little more at lunch, I probably wouldn’t be so hungry the second half of the work day.

I’m afraid to buy too much fruits and veggies. You know… you buy with good intentions, and then you end up eating nothing you bought. Thankfully, I’ve been sticking with the plan..for the most part.

I’ll confess! I have been cheating..some what… I make sure that I eat all my points. I make sure that I make healthy choices. But I’m hungry!!! So, I eat! I have learned that when you’re hungry, you eat. So I do. I maybe using up my weekly allowance points, but I really don’t care. I don’t like to feel hungry, and I won’t let myself be hungry.
(Let me be clear, I eat fruit @ night and drink plenty of water. NOT binge eating)

My husband had some insight into my predicament. When I first started losing weight, my weight loss was mostly being fueled by exercise (though of course I was eating less and healthier). Now, on WW, my weight loss is being fueled by eating less (not below 1200 calories), but still making sure I exercise regularly.

The pros are there. Weight Watchers is working. But the cons of a new “diet” are hard to adjust to. Yes, I know that I still need to do a lot of personal tweaking to ensure I’m not so hungry. But in the mean time, I’m really not going to stress about it.

I’m off to the gym now..just to make sure I keep myself occupied between homework time and dinner time. I’ll get the hang of this sooner or later.

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resolution time

New Year’s Eve  has arrived, and it is time for resolutions! I’m so happy that I can end 2011 happy with myself and with my accomplishments. The journey continues into 2012. I’m ready for the new year and to see what new things I can accomplish.

Here are some of my New Year’s Resolutions:

1. Keep finding ways to stay motivated

2. Help my family eat healthier

3. Go to sleep on time and wake up on time!

4. Pray with more purpose and more often

5. Write more

6. Find ways to show my love for others

What do your resolutions look like? I hope that you can reach your goals this new year! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

starting over, making plans…feels like deja vu

I need to write out my ideas and plans. I don’t know where it started. I hated making outlines for papers in high school. Seems though, that the older I get the more my thoughts get jumbled up. Every time I decide to start over, I have to write my plan, my goals and my meal ideas. Today, I have once again written out a plan. This time though, I am not only tackling my health but my spirit as well. I really do feel sometimes like I need a life coach. I have this need to make sure every thought or idea I have is reasonable, sensible and probable. I wasn’t like that when I was younger. I really don’t know where I started to doubt every single idea that pops into my head.

I told my best friend this morning that I have a real issue with fear. I fear that anything I try to do will fail, and I really want to remedy that. I believe that God knows me more than I know myself. He knows exactly what I’m capable of doing, and anything that I lack the strength to do He will push me on. In Jesus we have untapped power to go  beyond ourselves and achieve things that we probably could only ever dream of. It may seem like a stupid dream to be thinner, but my eating habits have made me fat, which in turn have made me a prisoner. I hate being tired all the time. I hate literally feeling the weight I carry around my belly. That same weight I feel around my stomach I feel in my heart. And without my heart I cannot win my prize.

I am going to jump-start (once again) my walk with God and my diet. I’m going to be doing The Purpose Driven Life devotional for forty days, and in that time I will also be living a fasted life style. I will give up fast food and sodas, I’m going to cut back on rice and bread and eat more greens. I will be going to bed earlier and waking earlier too. My plan is to study my devotional and meet with God in prayer. I cannot do this without Him. I have to include Him or this will never fully work the way I know it needs to.

I’m praying and hoping that I’m not wrong. I hope that this isn’t something that will just spring up and then fizzle out within days. I can’t keep having this same deja vu sequence over and over again in my life. This has to be the final cross-road. God help me because I will never be able to do this without your help and guidance. Please don’t let me be wrong, again.

 

fat clothes and yo-yo’s

I have been going over and over again in my head about this introductory blog. This is “Resurrecting the girl”, a blog of a girl on the brink of 30, desiring to lose weight, get spiritually grounded and find her place in the world. I cannot get to the hard-hitting stuff, without being a little whiny. Bear with me, okay? This whole blog is birthed out of the sheer fact that I am running out of fat clothes. I am already 80 lbs over weight, so to be running out of fat clothes at this point, is very depressing and distressing to me.

I once was a singer/songwriter with dreams of being famous! I was extremely hot once! I had tons of energy once. I felt like nothing could stop me once. It’s amazing how physical weight can bear even heavier on one’s soul than their bones, and trust me, my bones are aching. I am called “The Illest of all Jandra’s” by a lovely friend of mine named Tobi. I don’t feel like “the illest”. I just feel ill.

I am unhealthy, with a cholesterol count of 300 (maybe more, I can’t remember). I am starting to have bouts with acid reflux. And to top it off, I am a fast food junkie. I know I am a true junkie because my cholesterol count doesn’t stop me from eating it. My battered digestive system doesn’t stop me from eating it. Not even the smell of a dank mopped floor with the whiff of grease, at the fast food window, stops me from eating it. I am in dire straights. I am in need of a full life rehab, and the only thing I can think of to help me straighten up my life is writing.

I have yo-yoed with the same 10-15 lbs for years now. Enough is enough! Right? I have enough reasons to stop putting myself through misery. Did I mention that I have a wonderful husband and beautiful 5 year old daughter? I want to live and be there to love them and be able to enjoy feeling loved back. Agony. Agony is what I feel the most. So, I’m going to have to whine for a while as I try to bring life back to myself.

God help me. Jesus love me enough through this. Amen.

This wont all be “my life sucks because I’m fat.” It’s just part of my reality right now. I ask again, please bear with me. I’m gonna resurrect this girl some how.

Ready for a new life