Lost in a sea of posts

The last you saw me I had deactivated my Facebook page. I know many people who get on and get off and then back on again on Facebook. There is something about it that is totally smothering. Not to mention…yes, to mention, that it is mostly a self-absorbed waste of time. There are many pros and cons when it comes to social media. But one thing is for sure: Facebook has become a job.

There have to be a rare few, like my husband, that just get on Facebook to play games. My husband is not about posting pictures, posting his every thought or checking in at every venue. And I don’t want to sound like I’m above it all…because I am totally a poster, a status updater and check-in girl! I was checking my phone constantly. Did anyone leave a comment? Did anyone like my status, picture or check in? No one is paying attention to my life on Facebook! This must mean that I am unimportant. 

Sick, right?

That is why I had to get off. You know, you can feel lonely enough as it is in this big world; it is not enough that now we can get swallowed up in a sea of status updates, pictures and videos.

Yesterday wasn’t bad. I was sick all day, so I didn’t have time to miss Facebook. Today I went back to work. I’m surprised at how often I didn’t check my phone. Before I deleted all my apps I was checking my phone nonstop, getting dirty looks from certain coworkers for always being on my phone when they popped into my office. I wake up to pee at 3 am practically every morning…I would grab my cell and take it with me to the bathroom to see what I missed in the last 5 hours. I wouldn’t check my phone to check up on others though. I was checking if anyone was checking up on me.

I almost resent social media right now. I don’t want to knock those who stay on Facebook. I was just really tired of getting lost in it. Losing who I am because of it. I want my friends to come find me outside of Facebook. Is that snooty? If you want to have friends you must first show yourself to be friendly. So I don’t want to stalk my friends on Facebook any more.

Now just to figure out how to get in touch with people when no one wants to pick up a phone call any more….

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