when life gives me food, I eat it…and now to start over!

It has been a crazy 11 days.

Last Tuesday was my birthday (the 26th). I started celebrating on the 24th by going out to eat at this restaurant called The Velvet Cactus. It’s supposed to be Mexican, but it’s more of a Nola-Mex if you ask me. Food was decent, atmosphere real cool. Afterwards, we (husband, kid and friends) went down to:

The best Italian ice cream in New Orleans!







I had the banana pudding gelato...Oh my word….’Nuff said.

Monday, I took off from work and a friend of mine took me out for lunch. I had shrimp quesadillas with a chipotle aioli. I ate it all up! Tuesday, a co-worker took me out for Mexican. Wednesday I chilled out and actually made it to the gym. Then Thursday I went out with some of my girls to The Rum House and had more awesome tacos, fried plantains and a beer. It was all so yummy.

Sunday afternoon, me and the family left for a little vacation station on the Mississippi Gulf Coast. I feel like I haven’t stopped eating! It was all so good and yummy…but I think I’m actually growing tired of food, for now. I had started a new 40 day round last week, but looks like I’m going to have to reset my modem. My belly is feeling so yucky. My body feels sluggish. And on top of all that I have a cold. So I’m going to spend the next 4 days trying to cleanse my body a bit.

I need some apples. I need to make sure I drink plenty of water. Which reminds me that I need to pick up some Tazo Zen tea. My body and tummy perk up so much when I drink it. No crazy purges here, but I do need to “re-align” my stomach (and my schedule). I need to do a lot of tweaking to my food, exercise and personal schedule again. I feel like I’m always telling myself this, but if I don’t make lists, plans and memos, I’ll never get things done. Time to get things back on track!




40: end of the 3rd round, a look back and a look forward

I am so happy that this round is over. I have found a lot of success, but I also encountered a comfort zone. I don’t want to get comfortable where I am because I know I have a long way to go. I’m ready to set some new goals! Let’s get to the good stuff, shall we?

Making the choice to change!

All I can say about this first picture is, “Wow!” I am definitely not this girl any more. I went back and read some of my first posts on this blog, and I was so depressed and so lost. I am no longer depressed! I am no longer lost and depleted of hope. I have nothing but hope and confidence in my ability! That doesn’t mean that I don’t have days that are hard,  or that there aren’t times that I’m afraid about reaching my goals. I have just learned to no longer beat myself up and put myself down. If you continue down a road of self loathing, you’ll find yourself in a larger pit than you bargained for!

Seeing changes, the fire is burning!

Haha! This is the good stuff! I have to totally brag on myself! There are times where I can’t see or feel a difference, and these pictures say it all! “The proof is in the pudding!” I am so elated because in all my times of trying to get rid of the weight, I have never, never seen a change like this. I did this! I accomplished this! I keep these pictures as a reminder, not just of where I’ve been, but what I can do! However, I am ready to retire this shirt. I have found a new reference and motivational point.


New shirt, new goals

This is the new picture that I’ll be making my comparisons to. I was given this shirt, almost a year ago now, and when I got it I couldn’t even button it! It barely fit in the shoulders and chest. Obviously, I can get it on with no problem. You can’t see it too much in this picture, but the buttons are the verge of popping off still. I like this picture (I can’t believe I would ever say the following) because you have a good shot of the belly bulge. It’s hard to attack that belly fat. I know it’s going to be the last to go. As long as it’s shrinking, I’ll be happy.

At the beginning of these 40 days I weighed 214.8 lbs. Today, I end the 40 days weighing in at 206.8 lbs! An 8 pound loss! A 16 pound loss in total! I did say in the last post that I didn’t want to focus on pounds this time, but with only six pounds to go to break 200 lbs….I can’t miss the opportunity to set goals to finally obliterate my clinically obese weight! Round 4 officially begins tomorrow, February 5th, and goes till March 15th. I can’t wait to see what I accomplish! I use this blog to motivate myself, but I always hope and pray that you can find some motivation in my success too. I know what it’s like to hate yourself. I know what it’s like to try and try and never see a result. But now I know what’s like to really work, take up responsibility and succeed! I can do it! You can do it! We can do it!

23: let’s do it!

I’m halfway through this 40 day cycle, and at times it has felt like, ‘same ol’ same ol’.” Food and excercise trends are becoming habits, in a good way. And yet… I’m having an unsettling feeling at the moment. It’s a strange feeling of “looking back”.  Not giving up, just kinda like…how can I explain it?


The feeling kind of reminds me of the Israelites in the desert. After a couple of weeks of being “stuck” in the desert, though totally free from slavery, the Israelites began to whine. Paraphrasing of course, “Oh, how we miss Egypt. The food, the meat, the veggies…” TOTALLY forgot about the back-breaking labor FORCED upon them. I’m feeling a little that way now. “Oh, Wendy’s, how I miss your double stacks. So tasty, so yummy…” TOTALLY forgetting the havoc they caused my stomach, how miserably bloated and slow they made me.

Any loss of focus, on the bigger picture, can cause us a temporary loss of sanity. This is the time to be the most cautious! Laser beam focus is what is required. I’m starting a 2 week challenge, to end these 40 days with a positive bang! For the rest of this week, I’m going to plan my meals with precision, and work out 6 times a week. No excuses to miss a work out. I have not joined a gym yet, and still go back and forth on it. I know that I can do all my work outs at home or at the park. It’s time to get it right, get it tight!

Do what you must to stay focused on your goals! You can do this! I can do this! Let’s DO this!